Saturday, April 29, 2006
Thursday, April 27, 2006
time.. where did it all go?
ok, here's a heads up for what's to come in the near future.
18 Jul Class 3 Traffic Police Test - AKA driving license test date.
May to June - Class 2B lessons and gearing up for TP.
things to take note of:
Call uncle Meng Kim about 50th anniversary celebration.
Email KuoYong about pubs team for Youth-led service.
Talk to Shaun about YLS after his exams on wed (next week), before he leaves for China.
Lotsa prayer for the new agendas/rules/disciplines set in place.
i ask myself where all my time's gone.. *points finger*.. there it is..
18 Jul Class 3 Traffic Police Test - AKA driving license test date.
May to June - Class 2B lessons and gearing up for TP.
things to take note of:
Call uncle Meng Kim about 50th anniversary celebration.
Email KuoYong about pubs team for Youth-led service.
Talk to Shaun about YLS after his exams on wed (next week), before he leaves for China.
Lotsa prayer for the new agendas/rules/disciplines set in place.
i ask myself where all my time's gone.. *points finger*.. there it is..
Friday, April 21, 2006
words vs actions; apology vs amendments
i'm not about to give a lecture on this.
i've not such interest to.
i have learnt, that in times like these as often, an apology might expedite the reconciliation, but when i ain't exactly in desperate need of it, i rather work on the actions that should happen after the apology rather than waste my time, energy, emotions and what not trying to anticipate the right moment to apologise.
cleared my load of clothes that required to be pressed, won't need to mop the floor till next week, and till then, don't expect anymore from me as i won't from you either.
i bled my emotions for this courage, and it was a poor substitute, but it was the best i could give..
i've not such interest to.
i have learnt, that in times like these as often, an apology might expedite the reconciliation, but when i ain't exactly in desperate need of it, i rather work on the actions that should happen after the apology rather than waste my time, energy, emotions and what not trying to anticipate the right moment to apologise.
cleared my load of clothes that required to be pressed, won't need to mop the floor till next week, and till then, don't expect anymore from me as i won't from you either.
i bled my emotions for this courage, and it was a poor substitute, but it was the best i could give..
Sunday, April 16, 2006
wishful thinking.
a fragment of imagination.
maybe a dream?
or an illusion i hoped to be real.
standards are relative and subjective,
governed only by those who set and agree to abide by them.
so if society were only made up of two people,
would the law ever be fair?
would they ever come to agree on what can be the law?
a fragment of imagination.
maybe a dream?
or an illusion i hoped to be real.
standards are relative and subjective,
governed only by those who set and agree to abide by them.
so if society were only made up of two people,
would the law ever be fair?
would they ever come to agree on what can be the law?
Thursday, April 13, 2006
do we never allow ourselves to ponder about the worst possibilities in every possible circumstance simply because we don't want them to happen?
if that is true, then is it because we do not think about them that these outcomes do not come true?
i wanted to ask my friend what would be her greatest disappointment towards her boyfriend, but then i realised, she might not have an answer readily because she does not want to think of being disappointed with him in that magnitude, thus i withheld the question. i threw the question back at myself, and i found out too, i could not answer it, for likewise, i had not given it such thought, and i was not eager to.
i do not for one second doubt that God knows what would caused Him to be the most disappointed with us, and because he does know, it only shows He has given it thought.
not in any way did He require to think about it to know the answer since He is all-knowing, but it stands out like a sore thumb amongst all the rest who have not thought about things as such with regards to their love ones, that we have not thought about it, thus we have no idea of how we will prevent circumstances from getting to that stage, or worse still, how we (those who do not think about such things) would react should the worst actually be reality one day.
if that is true, then is it because we do not think about them that these outcomes do not come true?
i wanted to ask my friend what would be her greatest disappointment towards her boyfriend, but then i realised, she might not have an answer readily because she does not want to think of being disappointed with him in that magnitude, thus i withheld the question. i threw the question back at myself, and i found out too, i could not answer it, for likewise, i had not given it such thought, and i was not eager to.
i do not for one second doubt that God knows what would caused Him to be the most disappointed with us, and because he does know, it only shows He has given it thought.
not in any way did He require to think about it to know the answer since He is all-knowing, but it stands out like a sore thumb amongst all the rest who have not thought about things as such with regards to their love ones, that we have not thought about it, thus we have no idea of how we will prevent circumstances from getting to that stage, or worse still, how we (those who do not think about such things) would react should the worst actually be reality one day.
i am upset.
i am upset about being upset.
and i am upset because it was a movie, that reflected reality. i think romantic passion as such is what causes many to give themselves away freely to each other nowadays, and because it is glamourized and well sought after by many with the mindset that it's to be yearned for, i am upset.
i sighed a breathe of my soul away into nothingness..
i am upset about being upset.
and i am upset because it was a movie, that reflected reality. i think romantic passion as such is what causes many to give themselves away freely to each other nowadays, and because it is glamourized and well sought after by many with the mindset that it's to be yearned for, i am upset.
i sighed a breathe of my soul away into nothingness..
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
no prizes for guessing
try in all your knowledge of how i would react - with your absolute understanding of me as a friend - to the following:
a hollywood-ed, romanticized love story of Tristan and Isolde.
if you still don't get the flow, let me spell it out. i am disgusted. please do not waste your money watching it, or your time for that matter.
i realised if there's one arena of my life in which i still judge, it's movies. and trust me when i say i'm not sorry that i do. for i judge only to know what's right or wrong, or simply put, what He would have me watch, or otherwise.
i'm grieved at the words she used, that degradation of love, and the abomination in which the script was written, quoting the source of love to be God. sickly twisted. arGh!
if the question in your mind at this point in time is,
"why's he so worked up about the show?"
give me a ring on my cellphone if you have the answer, cause i don't, although i think it's cause i'm upset.
a hollywood-ed, romanticized love story of Tristan and Isolde.
if you still don't get the flow, let me spell it out. i am disgusted. please do not waste your money watching it, or your time for that matter.
i realised if there's one arena of my life in which i still judge, it's movies. and trust me when i say i'm not sorry that i do. for i judge only to know what's right or wrong, or simply put, what He would have me watch, or otherwise.
i'm grieved at the words she used, that degradation of love, and the abomination in which the script was written, quoting the source of love to be God. sickly twisted. arGh!
if the question in your mind at this point in time is,
"why's he so worked up about the show?"
give me a ring on my cellphone if you have the answer, cause i don't, although i think it's cause i'm upset.
Monday, April 10, 2006
dreams
i used to think they rob me of proper rest.
not untill i starting dreaming pleasant dreams.
but should that change with a nightmare?
i ain't clear. it was but a dream.
not untill i starting dreaming pleasant dreams.
but should that change with a nightmare?
i ain't clear. it was but a dream.
Sunday, April 09, 2006
toast, butter and jam.
i had that for dinner.
yummy. i ain't being sarcastic here.
hmmm.. alright, so ange's off once again. she'll be back sometime in july hopefully. that's if her papa's not bent on bringing them all to shanghai or thailand since her sister wouldn't be able to make it anyway.
i will excuse myself from conversation of any sort in future should i feel uneasy about the content on which the group has unaimously decided to charter it's chatters upon.
it's off to another 12 hours of work, solo night shift. muahahaha, at least i'll get to work on my own stuff throughout the night should the sitrep be quiet. i hope it is. when it's over, it'll then mean that i'll have to rush home to sleep so that i won't crash the vehicle later on in the day when i go for driving, and then it's on to picking up Rachel from true way. trust me, if there's one thing that makes me happy, it's her =)
i had that for dinner.
yummy. i ain't being sarcastic here.
hmmm.. alright, so ange's off once again. she'll be back sometime in july hopefully. that's if her papa's not bent on bringing them all to shanghai or thailand since her sister wouldn't be able to make it anyway.
i will excuse myself from conversation of any sort in future should i feel uneasy about the content on which the group has unaimously decided to charter it's chatters upon.
it's off to another 12 hours of work, solo night shift. muahahaha, at least i'll get to work on my own stuff throughout the night should the sitrep be quiet. i hope it is. when it's over, it'll then mean that i'll have to rush home to sleep so that i won't crash the vehicle later on in the day when i go for driving, and then it's on to picking up Rachel from true way. trust me, if there's one thing that makes me happy, it's her =)
Saturday, April 08, 2006
it still amazes me how obstinate one can be. it's as though liquid metal was inject into the sides of the brain and immediately cooled to harden, thus ensuring that nothing else get in - not discounting the fact that it probably was pretty empty to begin with -. that is pure stubborness.
they think it's cool, i'll leave them be.
that shall be my tag line, my little excuse to not ponder any longer than i should about people whose actions i disagree with, and i deem not the norm. i realise it's really pointless saying or doing anything unless the person's heart wants to hear or recieve whatever one attempts to do.
gosh, i'll faint in exhaustion one day if i try to be Mr Nice to everyone. i think some young punks ought to learn it the hard way. let's just hope conscription does it's well known job of changing boys to men. as far as i see it, it hasn't worked for our dearest subject.
arGh. enough said and done for now. goodnight.
they think it's cool, i'll leave them be.
that shall be my tag line, my little excuse to not ponder any longer than i should about people whose actions i disagree with, and i deem not the norm. i realise it's really pointless saying or doing anything unless the person's heart wants to hear or recieve whatever one attempts to do.
gosh, i'll faint in exhaustion one day if i try to be Mr Nice to everyone. i think some young punks ought to learn it the hard way. let's just hope conscription does it's well known job of changing boys to men. as far as i see it, it hasn't worked for our dearest subject.
arGh. enough said and done for now. goodnight.
Thursday, April 06, 2006
and the day went by like this..
it started out with waking up to a morning of Otah Bun which mama made with love. it was really spicy, but nevertheless i finished it cause mama made it for me =) thank you mom *hug
then it was on to more sleep, but i was woken up by mommy telling me she was leaving the house and i had to close the windows should it rain. the moment she stepped out, keys outside the door jingled again and i thought she forgot something. it was Shaun though. he had returned from an apparently early day in school. he watched tv for a solid 2 hours or so before switching it off and lying in bed for his afternoon slumber. my my my.. i wonder how he's tackling his exams. passed him his keypad (which happened to cost a bomb for a keypad), of which i got for him since he wouldn't use his white cover unless he's got the matching keypad, and it's true that the white cover's nicer.
i intend to redo my wish list.. i'm staving off the D70s for 2 months. due to financial constrain, and other priorities.
MOTOSLVR 7 is probably the next phone i'm going to get, either that or the SAMSUNG D600. but till then, i'll be content with my nokia6100 cause sms'ing with it is really easy.
hmmm... maybe i'll say more later, but then again, maybe i won't.
PS: laser mouse technology's good. i like my new Microsoft Laser 6000 =)
then it was on to more sleep, but i was woken up by mommy telling me she was leaving the house and i had to close the windows should it rain. the moment she stepped out, keys outside the door jingled again and i thought she forgot something. it was Shaun though. he had returned from an apparently early day in school. he watched tv for a solid 2 hours or so before switching it off and lying in bed for his afternoon slumber. my my my.. i wonder how he's tackling his exams. passed him his keypad (which happened to cost a bomb for a keypad), of which i got for him since he wouldn't use his white cover unless he's got the matching keypad, and it's true that the white cover's nicer.
i intend to redo my wish list.. i'm staving off the D70s for 2 months. due to financial constrain, and other priorities.
MOTOSLVR 7 is probably the next phone i'm going to get, either that or the SAMSUNG D600. but till then, i'll be content with my nokia6100 cause sms'ing with it is really easy.
hmmm... maybe i'll say more later, but then again, maybe i won't.
PS: laser mouse technology's good. i like my new Microsoft Laser 6000 =)
Monday, April 03, 2006
Saturday, April 01, 2006
it's been quite a while now.
let me see, what has happened.
i'm now allowed to take day offs on my night watch should KH be willing to stand in (we alternate as regularly as possible but in view of his NDP training we get maybe 2 or 3 cycles in a row) so that leaves me with actually 3 days of rest after 1 day watch sporadically.
i've finished HMS UNSEEN. quite a good book. will get more Patrick Robinsons' books. at least they don't bore me to death in the attempt to not waste money by gobbling of text literally. i get the picture of literal gluttony when i do that. pun intended.
well, i have witnessed how friends can choose to forgive for the sake of the friendship, ones in which they choose to believe is worth the bearing of sorrow and pain for.
till there's more to update, i just not waste anymore time.
let me see, what has happened.
i'm now allowed to take day offs on my night watch should KH be willing to stand in (we alternate as regularly as possible but in view of his NDP training we get maybe 2 or 3 cycles in a row) so that leaves me with actually 3 days of rest after 1 day watch sporadically.
i've finished HMS UNSEEN. quite a good book. will get more Patrick Robinsons' books. at least they don't bore me to death in the attempt to not waste money by gobbling of text literally. i get the picture of literal gluttony when i do that. pun intended.
well, i have witnessed how friends can choose to forgive for the sake of the friendship, ones in which they choose to believe is worth the bearing of sorrow and pain for.
till there's more to update, i just not waste anymore time.