James 1:22
Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what is says.

James 3:16-18
For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice.

But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere.

Peacemakers who sow in peace raise a harvest of righteousness.

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i struggled whether to go the whole day, and i learnt once again, that when something must be addressed, don't run away from it, it doesn't help solve it.
i'm thankful for speaking to some people in the course of the day, and if it be in God's will, i hope i talk to them again soon.

for now, i need to sleep, because i'm tired. good night everyone.

i think it's childish, how your dislikes about my studying patterns is worth losing your temper over.

i think it's childish on your part to think that not sending me to school would make me flinch or apologise for that matter.

i think there's no ground for you being displeased at my current studying and relaxing habbits since there has been no assessment on my grades thus far, and i've been practising on the piano.

finally, i think i think too much.

"we tend to look at all things but ourselves. myself"

Point Of Grace - Jesus will still be there

things change, plans fail
you look for love on a grander scale
storms rise, hopes fail
and you place your bets on another day

when the going gets tough,
when the ride's too rough
when you're just not sure enough

Chorus:
Jesus will still be there,
His love will never change,
sure as a steady rain,
Jesus will still be there,
When no one else is true,
He'll still be loving you.

when it looks like you've lost it all
when you haven't got a prayer,
Jesus will still be there

Time flies, hearts turn
a little wiser from lessons learnt
tongues tied, weakness wins,
and you lose your foothold once again,

when the going gets tough,
when the ride's too rough
when you're just not sure enough


Chorus x2 (second time climb one key)

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Phil 4:6-7
Ms Yeo was really nice today, came up to me and told me to check out this verse, exactly the one i had been looking for all these while.
thank you Ms Yeo.

haha, wj, i can't imagine how it feels like to feel les when you look at her, but i sure am enjoying it as a male. hahaha, she's really so sweet, and nice to me too. muahahaha, jealous? =p

hmmm.. my back's hurting, and so are some other parts of my body, but i hope it goes away with the rest i hope to get tonight.
Lord, thank you for bringing me through the day! =)
will talk to you at 430am in the morning later.

'in every human being there is a wish to ameliorate his own condition' --> at least most people do, whether i do, i don't know, i'll find out, when i've got the time.

i never want to play the games that people want to play
i never want to hear the things you've got to say
i found everything i need
i never wanted anymore than i can see
i only want you to believe

Chorus:
if it's wrong to tell the truth,
what am i supposed to do?
all i want to do is speak my mind
if it's wrong to do what's right
i'm prepared to testify
if loving you with all my heart's a crime
then i'm guilty

i want to give you all the things you never had
don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't right
i need you back in my life
i never wanted to be just the other guy
i never want to leave alive

Chorus

girl i follow my heart
follow the truth
right from the start
you led me to you
please don't leave me this way
i'm guilty and all i have to say

Chorus

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some of you might know this song, and from the lyrics, there ain't no prizes for guessing, but yeah, at least they can sing in tune.

hahaha and yes wj, i know you think they're beng. =p

hmmm.. music and songs, mean quite a bit when the thoughts that the composers and authors have manage to get through to those who bother to listen. the word's listen, not hear.

no doubt God gave us a mouth for speech, but i feel some should learn to appreciate the nice contours of lips, when they're together, also meaning when the mouth is shut.

much to look forward to tonight, since there's going to be good food. thankful for the short day in school, and no i wasn't pissed. i just ain't comfortable talking to some people anymore. don't ask me why, i ain't knowing myself.

maybe i would be inured to this world someday, after prolonged subjection to it, by choice or otherwise.. hmm...

i wonder.. and i wonder more..

but who cares when i've got peace? =)

by the way, vrede's peace in Dutch.

de vrede is met u --> all you out there, it's my wish especially for the people i hold close to my heart, that you find your own peace.

goodnight Lord, goodnight mommy, daddy, jiejie, shaun, wj, christine, isabel, fun, sam, jeremy, handi, glenn, yy, jr, and all you out there. good night earth, hope you recover from this mess we're making you into.

econs test tomorrow morning before recess. hmmm.. on inflation. studying for it now, but burning a CD for shaun, will commence once the CD's done.
tutorials to do, math file to tidy before submitting on friday, and council meeting for orientation tomorrow.
looks like a lot to do for this week, and so will the many weeks that follow ahead till my A's are over. haha, what a sad life i lead huh.. well, till then, i'm glad i've got God, and certain people in my life to help me through all this.

thank God for sakae sushi, and the ice cream. hahaha PE tomorrow should clear those off. hmmm.. bought a kettle and instant beverage for the council room, hope they enjoy it. well, i have to go now. ciao.

what i've just watched: The Last Samurai. i rate it 8.5/10
for those out there who need something good to watch, go catch it. it brought to me more than just entertainment and a mystified feeling about the Samurai. no, i ain't going to aspire to be a samurai, cause firstly, i don't think fat samurais exist, and secondly, i ain't japanese.

but rather, the show reminded me, that when something has to be addressed, no matter what you do, be it drown yourself in alcohol, in your work, or occupy yourself in so many other ways but that particular one of trying to resolve the issue, you're going to feel, look, and live like crap.

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i chose to believe, that yes, men was made in God's image. and because of that, we would always seek for something to worship. it happened with the stone age men, when they sought the sun and other gods to worship. it happens with pagen faith believers like buddhist, taoist, and whatever-i-didn't-mention. do you see monkeys gathering with joss sticks praying to the gods of nature?

what am i saying? well, that i've experienced what it feels like to be in God's presence, walking in His ways, walking right with Him. well, i have. i ain't saying i still am.
and that's the problem, cause i'm getting this constant bugging from what i would call the Holy Spirit, and i'm thankful for it. unlike Pharoh, my heart hasn't hardened -i think-, and at least i know where i want to go.

what i want for now: peace

peace with God
peace with my family
peace with friends (people i hold close to my heart)
peace with school (teachers and school mates; people who are invovled with me only via school relationships)
peace with myself

the list would go on, but let's start with the basics.
i ask not of happiness, wealth, health, or even wisdom from the Lord, for what good would all those be if i am not at peace in His presence?

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it's the 3rd day of CNY, and i'm eating a plain dinner at home. new experience, but i thank God for the food.
may blog a little more later on.

This is probably the start of something new like those that i've started before.

It's my recording of what i feel as and when i like it, and when the circumstances permit it that i get to use this keyboard, because i won't be using Grafitti to record this events i pen down.

I'm in school now, it's a thursday evening, and i'm just half done with copying my physics holiday assignment. yes even though i'm the president of the student's council, i'm copying homework. i ain't about to do something stupid like confessing that i've not done my homework and get shot down for it. i feel it's the best option i have for now.

Today's PCCG period was an interesting session where Ms Lai, actually marketed the council well, i'm thankful she did that. i know my council has worked hard for the past month at least, and i think that praise and claps were due, although they weren't really enthusiastic. i'm going to speak tomorrow to Ms Lai about the 'council calender' since it was Ms Yong's idea that it would be a good time to catch Ms Lai over dinner since it would be casual. i'm thankful i got hold of the physics assignments i copied from.

Fun mama came back to school today, and she gave me a gift, thanks so much for it fun! i do miss her, i confess it.

things have unfolded in the past few days, and yes, only time is capable of knowing how great love CAN be, if nurtured properly, with the right intentions. so many things are running through my head now, and those things that many people have said to me are coming back slowly now, but surely. i will do my bible study tonight, i'm looking forward to it as a matter of fact. i'll stop here for now, and maybe i d make my way home thinking about some things, or i might just go with the flow, and be absorbed into my surrondings. take care all you people out there.