to enter slumber with a heavy heart,
with the wish that it would lighten up when you awaken,
to find it weigh down as before,
then you realize you were lying to yourself.

quit hoping like this.
face the music.
love bravely.
and wake up.

God help me to remember that bargaining is a phenomenon that takes place between two who have their respective bargaining chips/power. help me remember that you're God, and that i'm man.

struggles that don't kill you make you stronger. i know that. i do know however firsthand that sometimes i rather be dead.