sometimes life's lessons come quietly, other times it's a really loud bang.

today, i've understood one lesson, and it cost quite a lot, it will never be the same again, but that's precisely what the lesson is; it's a season for change!

"the only constant is change, just as the only certainty in life is death.."

deviation from the original purpose; perfectly exemplified by mankind.

we come up with our own idols, hobbies, whims and fancies, and we justify them with whatever reason or logic our finite minds can whip up.

at the crunch, decisions are tough, and whether or not they are wise ones, time will tell.

i'm lamenting, and i'm not sorry about it.

*decisions, decisions, and more decisions.

love in a time of exams

my personalized welfare consists of the following:

1 x Old Town White Coffee Packet of 15 sticks

1 x Wheel Potatoe snack

2 x Liang Teh

1 x pack of Pong Piah

i really feel loved =) *hugs*

life began when the Lord breathes the spirit of life into us.

even before the point of conception, He knew each of us dearly.

i don't know how far away you are from Him,

but i do know that He loves you very much.

an active decision is not a birthright, it is solely by His grace that we are bestowed with it.

cherish that gift, do not abuse it, and live the consequences, for one day we will all account to Him.

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51 days and counting.

so much has happened.
4th quarter already... eekz.
oh well, looking foward's better than looking backward only to realize that we haven't done much on our parts - but that doesn't discount looking back and reflecting on what's happened.

goals, visions, and dreams - here we come.

你最近不說話 怎么了 為什么
是不是有什么事讓你不快樂
听說你最近很孤單 有點亂 有點慌
可是我卻不能夠在你的身旁

你想要的 我卻不能夠給你我全部
我能給的 卻又不是你想要擁有的
我們不适合 也不想認輸
好几次我們抱著彼此都是想要哭

常解釋這樣的一切都只是開始
我覺得是所有的一切早已就結束
不想再約束不要再痛苦
下一次會有更好的情路

你最近不說話 怎么了 為什么
是不是有什么事讓你不快樂
听說你最近很孤單 有點亂 有點慌
可是我卻不能夠在你的身旁

你想要的 我卻不能夠給你我全部
我能給的 卻又不是你想要擁有的
我們不适合 也不想認輸
好几次我們抱著彼此都是想要哭

常解釋這樣的一切都只是開始
我覺得是所有的一切早就已結束
不想再約束不要再痛苦
下一次會有更好的情路

愛 我卻不能夠 給你我全部
我能給的 卻又不是你想要擁有的
你想要的 我卻不能夠給你我全部
我能給的 卻又不是你想要擁有的
我們不适合 也不想認輸
好几次我們抱著彼此都是想要哭

常解釋這樣的一切都只是開始
我覺得是所有的一切早已就結束
不想再約束不要再痛苦
下一次會有更好的情路

這一次我們都能很幸福

the truth hurts when we forget that we look upon ourselves too highly; when we stop thinking we're really that great, the truths would stop hurting.

i'm going home, to a place where i belong..

maybe someday i'll realise where that is.

ok i give up. the running away's tiring, and i'm coming home.
let's start with the basics once again.
20mins a day.
do's and don'ts of course are in the picture.

thanksgiving and supplication will be a must.
all glory be to You.

i've come to realise that when one listens hard enough to the voice of a man who's heart is for God, one catches on with that excitement; it's contagious, and it's appealing.

i serve a God, who is faithful and true
i will hide, in the shelter of Your wings
for i find my rest, in Your faithfulness,
yes i serve a faithful God.

²⁶In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. ²⁷And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will.

i'm wondering how mom reacted to the message on Sunday - i didn't expect her to go cause i had the idea she had to pop by the office for work, but it was a pleasant surprise to know she did go in the end. maybe i'll talk to her when she's back from Shanghai on the 1st.

religiousity.
familarity.

tsk tsk

leaders are in their preparation phase till they have a life changing encounter with Him.
that would mean we're always being prepared.

i wonder how many people do actually listen to the whole CD when they buy one, or do they keep repeating the slightly catchier ones, and really ignore the other slower, less prominent ones.

Two 'o clock and I wish that I was sleeping
You're in my head like a song on the radio
All I know is that I got to get next to you
Yeah I got to get next to you
Sitting here turning minutes into hours
To find the nerve just to call you on the telephone
You don't know that I got to get next to you

[Chorus]
Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy
But I think you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just got to get next to you

I asked around and I heard that you were talking
Told my girl that you thought I was out of your league
What a fool, I got to get next to you, whoa
Yeah it's five in the morning and I can't go to sleep
'Cause I wish, yeah I wish that you knew what you mean to me
Baby let's get together and end this mystery, oh

i just got back from a wake.

"i've not attended many of my friends' weddings, and i've clocked the first funeral"

the cremation service's in 10hours time, and although we weren't close, there were lessons to be learnt.

any death is an appropriate occasion for 2 things:

1. to mourn the death of a loved one; that person definitely had someone who loved him/her, and he/she definitely loved others.

2. to be joyous that he/she is going home to another who loves him/her more than we ever could; that's with the assumption that the person did know the Lord, and had accepted Him to be the saviour - question to ask then: what are we doing to make sure that this point doesn't turn out to be N.A (Not Applicable)?

yes, cry! we should. those tears deserve to fall, and those hearts ought to ache.
but yes sing! and know that the love you have for her would pale in comparison to how much the Lord loves her.

a feast has been prepared for her upon her return, after having been away for her life here on earth; just as parents prepare the fattened calf for the child who's been away for extended periods, what more our Father in heaven?

thank you friend for your friendship, although we never met till today. my only consolation to that, is that i would one day see you in the kingdom that is from everlasting to everlasting. till then, do what you were created to do; praise Him =)

my wishlist for 2009: (dreams are free; thus some of these items are appearing on this list)

1.ProMedia GMX A-2.1
2.Yamaha R6
3. Nikon D300 - w/ 17-55mm F2.8 Nikor
4. SB900
5. a new Mezz
6. Predator PB2
and finaly...
7. a white christmas