it's raining early in the morning, and i got to secure early from work. i'm thankful, but i'm weary of the office politics. hmmm.. i think i'm beginning to appreciate what Shaun said about 3 weeks back. it doesn't matter what vocation you are in the SAF in these 2 years, what matters if whether you've behaved in a fashion that would show the world that you've got Christ in your life.
somehow i can't reaffirm myself postively about that question because of the bitterness and attitudes i've shown at times with regard to the jaded feelings i have about my work at this point in time. Lord, something's wrong, i'm wrong, teach me what to do.
APEX's coming to an end, it was a blurry fluster of events and reports, but i'm grateful i was on ops, it's more my forte than reports really, so yeah. thank You Father.
on a lighter note, i wanna go for porridge cause of this rain, then come home and catch up on my sleep. it's the last night watch of 5 tonight, let's hope it be a good one.
Friday, August 25, 2006
i'm dealing with...
bitterness once again.
i know i must and should behave in a manner that would exhibit love.
Lord, help me please.
i know i must and should behave in a manner that would exhibit love.
Lord, help me please.
things to attend to:
2 Sep: 1st run of Faith Factor program for Saturdays!
9 Sep: meeting to shift the orientation for 4th floor youth room
anytime after 1 Sep: i need to schedule a dental appointment, so that the dentist can refer me to Alexendra Hospital for extraction of my wisdom tooth, it's starting to give me problems, i don't wanna go into details, it's quite disgusting actually.
ongoing: life, along with many of it's ups and downs. haha. always learn to smile at them all, for we're put through them with God's permission =)
to you: i hope you cheer up, it pains to know that you're not doing well, but i guess standing by the side to offer you support when you need it's all i can do for now.
9 Sep: meeting to shift the orientation for 4th floor youth room
anytime after 1 Sep: i need to schedule a dental appointment, so that the dentist can refer me to Alexendra Hospital for extraction of my wisdom tooth, it's starting to give me problems, i don't wanna go into details, it's quite disgusting actually.
ongoing: life, along with many of it's ups and downs. haha. always learn to smile at them all, for we're put through them with God's permission =)
to you: i hope you cheer up, it pains to know that you're not doing well, but i guess standing by the side to offer you support when you need it's all i can do for now.
Thursday, August 17, 2006
sustenance, would the living bread suffice?
ok, it's back to fish and greens.
right now it's for health reasons, till i find a good reason upon contemplation what this abstinence should be about.
shot some hoops today with shaun.
it was good to run about again, however i won't be able to do much of it in future.
moderately's the keyword i guess.
that's why i want to buy my bicycle,
and re-apply for the sports club memebership,
so that i can go work out in the gym and swimming pool.
right now it's for health reasons, till i find a good reason upon contemplation what this abstinence should be about.
shot some hoops today with shaun.
it was good to run about again, however i won't be able to do much of it in future.
moderately's the keyword i guess.
that's why i want to buy my bicycle,
and re-apply for the sports club memebership,
so that i can go work out in the gym and swimming pool.
Chris Rice - When Did You Fall
From the album Amusing
You’re all smiles and silly conversation
As if this sunny day came just for you
You twist your hair, you smile and you turn your eyes away
C’mon, tell me what’s right with you
Now it dawns on me probably everybody’s talkin’
And there’s something here I’m supposed to realize
‘Cause your secret’s out, and the universe laughs at it’s joke on me
I just caught it in your eyes, it’s a beautiful surprise
Chorus:
When did you fall in love with me?
Was it out of the blue
‘Cause I swear I never knew it
When did you let your heart run free?
Have you been waiting long?
When did you fall in love with me?
When did you fall in love?
Make your way over here, sit down by this fool, and let’s rewind
C’mon, let’s go back and replay all our scenes
You can point out the hints, the clues, the twists and the smiles this time
All the ones that slipped by me
I bet my face is red, and you can hear my heart poundin’
Well I guess it don’t matter now that I realize
‘Cause baby I missed it then, but I can surely see you now
Right there before my eyes
You’re my beautiful surprise
Chorus:
Was it at the coffee shop
Or that morning at the bus stop
When you almost slipped, and I caught your hand
Or the time we built the snowman
The day at the beach, sandy and warm
Or the night with the scary thunderstorm
I never saw the signs
Now we’ve got to make up for lost time
And I can tell now by the way that you’re looking at me
I’d better finish this song so my lips will be free
Have you been waiting long, when did you fall in love
I kept you waiting so long, when did you fall
Have you been waiting long
When did you fall in love with me
When did you fall in love?
From the album Amusing
You’re all smiles and silly conversation
As if this sunny day came just for you
You twist your hair, you smile and you turn your eyes away
C’mon, tell me what’s right with you
Now it dawns on me probably everybody’s talkin’
And there’s something here I’m supposed to realize
‘Cause your secret’s out, and the universe laughs at it’s joke on me
I just caught it in your eyes, it’s a beautiful surprise
Chorus:
When did you fall in love with me?
Was it out of the blue
‘Cause I swear I never knew it
When did you let your heart run free?
Have you been waiting long?
When did you fall in love with me?
When did you fall in love?
Make your way over here, sit down by this fool, and let’s rewind
C’mon, let’s go back and replay all our scenes
You can point out the hints, the clues, the twists and the smiles this time
All the ones that slipped by me
I bet my face is red, and you can hear my heart poundin’
Well I guess it don’t matter now that I realize
‘Cause baby I missed it then, but I can surely see you now
Right there before my eyes
You’re my beautiful surprise
Chorus:
Was it at the coffee shop
Or that morning at the bus stop
When you almost slipped, and I caught your hand
Or the time we built the snowman
The day at the beach, sandy and warm
Or the night with the scary thunderstorm
I never saw the signs
Now we’ve got to make up for lost time
And I can tell now by the way that you’re looking at me
I’d better finish this song so my lips will be free
Have you been waiting long, when did you fall in love
I kept you waiting so long, when did you fall
Have you been waiting long
When did you fall in love with me
When did you fall in love?
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
the foolish of the earth will shame the wise of the earth
from someone as proud as him,
i saw how the Lord taught humbling lessons indeed.
yet from the lowest of humble men,
i learnt lessons from which are worth being proud of.
it's an irony how we build our security on things that do not last,
how we place such high value on the worthless,
and how complicated we make simple things to be.
Lord, teach me to seek your Kingdom first above all other things.
i saw how the Lord taught humbling lessons indeed.
yet from the lowest of humble men,
i learnt lessons from which are worth being proud of.
it's an irony how we build our security on things that do not last,
how we place such high value on the worthless,
and how complicated we make simple things to be.
Lord, teach me to seek your Kingdom first above all other things.
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
i just heard a friend mention that she wants a restart to all things that are bad.
hmmm.. then i thought to myself, why yearn a restart and have the risk of it going bad again, when you can be thankful it's over?
somehow i feel a need to monitor more.. the things i think about, say and do. cause i've got a feeling it's all going to come back one day.
hmmm.. then i thought to myself, why yearn a restart and have the risk of it going bad again, when you can be thankful it's over?
somehow i feel a need to monitor more.. the things i think about, say and do. cause i've got a feeling it's all going to come back one day.
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Saturday, August 12, 2006
when you realise nothing really belongs to you
i'm living on borrowed time.
twice today i could have gone home to God.
i wonder why i didn't, it sure would taken the pain out of many things.
twice today i could have gone home to God.
i wonder why i didn't, it sure would taken the pain out of many things.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Monday, August 07, 2006
rewind, replay, revisit
it's back to the basics.
A
B
C
1
2
3
learning to smile once again like i used to when i was a kid.
i hope i still remember.
tonight's win was a morale booster. but it was also a test of many things within me. it could have been better. nevertheless, i'm grateful.
A
B
C
1
2
3
learning to smile once again like i used to when i was a kid.
i hope i still remember.
tonight's win was a morale booster. but it was also a test of many things within me. it could have been better. nevertheless, i'm grateful.
Saturday, August 05, 2006
when you don't bother anymore, it speaks alot.
phone calls, sms-es, or simple sweet nothings, it's the little things that count.
well, i guess priorites are in the constant state of changing, so i don't hold it against you that you've changed, just don't hold it against me that i do too.
i've cut off alot. from everyone. it was subconcious, it was because i didn't want to be seen for my weaknesses, i only wanted to be known for my strengths. i miss the warmth though. i miss terms of endeavours that hung on my lips. for what it's worth, i do miss you.
till then, it's not in the doing, it's in the heart.
phone calls, sms-es, or simple sweet nothings, it's the little things that count.
well, i guess priorites are in the constant state of changing, so i don't hold it against you that you've changed, just don't hold it against me that i do too.
i've cut off alot. from everyone. it was subconcious, it was because i didn't want to be seen for my weaknesses, i only wanted to be known for my strengths. i miss the warmth though. i miss terms of endeavours that hung on my lips. for what it's worth, i do miss you.
till then, it's not in the doing, it's in the heart.
Friday, August 04, 2006
W.W.J.D
after having been exposed to so many years of bitterness, i'm suddenly presented a chance of reconciliation, what do you think i would do?
well, one thing i must say though, i am a little torn in between, but i believe the guiding light must be God, for only what He would do is what i must and should do.
Lord, please pave the way for me in this matter.
well, one thing i must say though, i am a little torn in between, but i believe the guiding light must be God, for only what He would do is what i must and should do.
Lord, please pave the way for me in this matter.