i have a disturbingly blatant inability to:

1. swallow my pride/contain the criticism,
2. love people the way Jesus would,
3. put into action head knowledge that proves easier to merely understand.

For starters, let's work on making it less blatant.

~For a man is made inward out, and actions would speak of the true state of the soul contained within~

my eyes are tired, tired from that saturation of those familiar colours; yellow, blue, red, pink, orange, green, brown, black and then yellow with white.

well, the hectic schedule is underway now, so be it. i'm not affected by the work, somehow the adrenaline just pumps and after i hand over, my whole mental and emotional self just collapses. i'm missing You, and you too. some might say i'm choosing to spend too much time with my spliced-baby, but it's my alternative. trust me, if i really had the choice, i would be spending time with you.

i'm tired. i was so tired last night my legs were cramping up just walking to my bathroom from my bedroom. i hope the sleep last night did me good. i'm sure the racket downstairs that celebrates someone's entry to hell isn't doing me any good, it's irritating.

random accomplishments or the lack of them

well... i've:

1. hoover the living room area, haven't done up the whole house yet
2. ran today, feeling good about it, not eaten much today either
3. cleared my DVD serial all the way till the last episode
4. gotten my teams more or less settled, less a few souls who aren't convicted which areas to serve

but.. i've not:
1. settled mama's mobo problem
2. returned Shaun the 50bucks i owe him, cause he's been away (he's coming back in an hour)
3. work for the past 6 days, looking forward to going back so as to clear this cycle so that sat can come quickly. i'm looking forward to it for 2 major reasons, one cause i would get to spend time with love ones over lunch, and cause i would get to serve this month on the drums. i'm going to clean up the cymbals with the new toy i got too.. hehehe, i'm excited
4. gone for biking/driving lessons for some time now; the next one's 211615H May 06.

things i have to do:

1.hoover the whole house, including all the cushions - which would probably take 3 hours or more when mom and shaun are gone, so i intend to do it on thurs morning before night shift.

2. prepare my bible study for my kids although i won't be seeing them this week, it's really talking to God and reading His word i want to do.

3. pray lots.

incessant talk

and no conclusion. that's the worst kind of gathering anyone can go through.

hmmm.. differences will always be there. whether or not to let them complement each other, or to result in conflict, yes indeed the choice is ours.

oh well, i've had enough differences for a week. leave me alone.