*your smile is the key to my locked up heart

it's been a while now.. well, that's that. a screwed up day, and nothing's really going to change that. i'm really tired though.

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darn, i don't want to go for lessons tomorrow, but i have to. last lessons of my jc life anyway. haha.
need to pass someone something anyway, and also it's one my second last official day being in school. it... gets my emotions welled up. i can't say i would cry, but i know i've given up a part of me to the school. willingly.
it'll never change that i was part of the pioneer batch, it would never change that i was who i have been in the school as a student, friend, and senior.

well, it's time to say goodbye i guess. and it's saddening, but i smile knowing that it was once there. thank you all for having made my stay in meridian the way it was.

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lyrics to a song,
i could type for all to see.
but the tones and feelings of an instrumental,
you have to hear for yourself.

the unspoken words,
there probably aren't any anyway.
but figments of imagination,
and hope are the narcotics i turn to.
to get me past my darkness moments,
of the cold fact of unfufilled dreams that would remain that way.

you want to be happy,
i want you to be happy.
but i don't dare to make any promises,
cause i ain't sure whether i could make you smile.
i sure do know what your smile is like,
but i guess i have to content that i'm not the reason of it,
at this point in time,
and almost surely never.

would you ever care to turn the key you hold to this lock?