just finished memoirs of a geisha. like all 'romance' movies and books, that feeling's back, but oh well. it's not the cause of why i'm feeling like that. that's secondary.

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don't wanna think about it all.

maybe i'll wander in the desert for 10, 20 years before finding out where i'm supposed to go. well, i don't want that to happen. =(

disappointments are part and parcel of life, and i just... oh well.. hmmm.. nevermind.

i have to get this cause and effect thing outta my head. it's childish, and it's so near-sighted. i have to learn to look at the bigger picture of things happening around me.

well, i have people to look up to at least. uncle mengkim, wah kor, and others i believe. but oh well, looking at them ain't tantamount to my life falling in their footsteps, although i could try to emulate parts of their lives here and there.

oh well, dinner is going to be one of good f0od, crabs at kallang airport food centre.
till laters..

ever went through a split second for which you think it's really dumb to be thinking of something, but the very next moment you realise that you're actually the one entertaining that very same 'childish' thought?