saying sorry when you have to makes it all better. learn to throw your pride away, and things get settled easier, because then you're slow to anger, quick to listen, and willing to accept other viewpoints.

the last time i said sorry, was about 2 hours ago to my dad. this apology wasn't an easy way out to just escape the threats, and to ease this tension at the moment. it was made after thought. i know i was in the wrong, and i wanted to do something about it.
i've been selfish, no doubt about it.
i also said sorry to Him today, and i had a good part of the day in LE today.
i'm thinking, and i'm asking for directions.

here's the plan for certain things for now:
1. i'll do my QT everyday, starting at about 930 give and take. i've not been close to Him, that's probably why everything's out of order. it's chaotic.
2. 4 times practise on the piano at least weekly, 25-30mins per session. need to stop wasting money going for lessons and not practising.
3. will help out with the clothes on fri, sat and sunday evenings. this is the minimum. yeap.

i understand how love for your family can drive you to do things for them, even though it's contrary to what's been agreed upon, even when your well-being's being infringed upon. i didn't learn that through first hand experience, i learnt it through the tears my dad shed.

so many things i must admit, that need to be done, but seriously, i don't think any of them are as important as the few that really do matter.
i need to start talking to Him again, spending time in this relationship can only be right.
i need to start loving again, not myself, but others.
i need to get my work back into a disciplined routine.

i guess with this 3things in place, the other parts of my life would more or less fall into place. friends are included in that 2nd point. =) and the people i love more so too.

dinner, and then on to the part of the evening, which i'm looking forward to. time to go at my tuts, and spending time with Him. =)