Monday, March 15, 2004

the will i can exercise after falling..

as i have said to some of my friends before, love is a will. it's something i still believe in, but from the time i was first convicted of this till now, i've learnt some lessons in between, that were more or less ideas relating to this concept.

although it's wrong to be unequally yolked, i now feel it's ok to like someone who's a non-believer.
it's as simple as that, but it does have underlying meanings, that i choose not to bend at any cost, after lessons learnt the hard way.
i may like someone who's not a Christian, but no, i will not bring myself to be with her, cause i know that there will be an end to it, something which i believe the right relationship doesn't have. that stoppage, that end. you understand me?

i may fall for the wrong person, but after i fall, i can pick myself up, and tell myself to stop liking that person, because the mind in which reason rules the body, it reigns over feelings, if i will myself to do so. quoted from a friend, "although many a time people say they can't help liking that person, i don't think it's what you feel about the person, it's what you do after you know what you feel for that person"
why hurt someone and yourself by embarking on something that you know won't work out? it's not worth getting into a relationship which you can see an end to.

well, not that i would make a perfect boyfriend to my girlfriend in future, but i know somethings.
1. i know i would make you angry at times
2. i know i would disappoint you with who i am many a time
3. i can guarantee you, that both of us would feel like just throwing in the towel when things are down
4. i can't bring you the moon, the stars, even your favourite ice cream, or the CD album you want so desperately sometimes due to my human/technological/monetary limitations

but 5. i know that i would be truthful to you, will myself to love you with all i can give, and have the comfort in my heart knowing that i have the Lord's blessings in making that decision to do so. With the hope that i would one day love you selflessly, that's what i would work towards for you. =)