the life you gave,
and the life you're giving,
that difference is Jesus.
you had Him,
stop pushing Him away,
do you not reciprocate His yearning?
lost you were,
hold on fast lest you slip back into the abyss,
learn both hard and easy,
but learn at the end of the day.

are we meant to be stuck in this endless cycle of repentance and guilt?
just cause a team works well with the way they've always worked, doesn't imply that their way's the best way to go about doing things, so does that mean that although this is the way life is led in this fashion, do we go about it mindlessly? do we try to break the cycle? or do we just give up?

i'm quite sick of it really.

it scares me to think that science has somehow managed to observe a pattern in human beings that we all seek for spouses, who are like our parents by nature. it's scary, for this, i hope i'm the minority.

that was taken on our drive around in Tasmania. Nissan X-trail, something i wouldn't drive in future, but nevertheless, thankful i got to try it. heheh

it's off to another part of the continent.
we've all been up since 170500K Feb 07, and somehow the reality of whatever was said yesterday in the presence of each other is slowly sinking in.
it's something we never got to do in the last 4 years,
what more over a special occassion and meal,
a refreshing experience it has been indeed.

-Always trust God, as we have, and as we're going to.
-Blood is thicker than water.
-Being clear about where you're going's better than never having thought about it.
-Never shortchange yourself - imagine whether you want your children to behave like that in future.
-Grateful.

all that decadence, exchanged for the world's most expensive yet free gift of salvation.

nah, thanks but no thanks. it's appealing really, but it's simply not worth it.

Jul 2005 - Feb 2007

time of death: 161500K Feb 07

was pronounced dead by owner at 3pm en route next stop for shopping with family, due to overuse. memorial service was held in the washroom of a student apartment on Viller Street, and one minute of silence was observed.

if you were wondering who/what i was speaking of, it was my right contact lense. i threw it away, it's shelf life was estimated to be 1.5 years, so it did serve it's time well. thankfully i've got a spare trial pair with me here in the melbourne, or i would so die from the sunshine here because my eyes are very sensitive to bright light, and it doesn't happen to be the dreary dark season down south at this time of the year.

ok, we're off to reunion dinner at Crown. interesting the experience has been thus far since it's my first celebrating CNY overseas. it's a good break from the monotony of tradition too.

if she's not the one i'll fight for her
but if she is God will fight for her

just something i learnt.
i'm not sure the condition of my heart.
don't ask me,
i ain't telling.
really.
well, at least not to just anyone.

till the day i say 'i do' to my future wife, these two ladies would remain the two most important in my life.

mad rush.
so much so the pain in my fingers hurt only after a night's rest.
too busy being angry,
for no apparent reason,
or at least i can't figure out in this point in time what it is.

on a random note, i'm switching to teh-O from my usual Kopi,
no idea why.

i'm looking forward to the trips very much,
i hope all goes well with ticketing; for both occassions.

no prizes for guessing where this is

trust me on this,
i ain't going to blame you even if you gave up,
it's not been easy i know,
i've not been easy.

choices we make,
consequences we live with,
so till you beg to differ,
i'll see you when i see you next.