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this is jeremy's mail.
i'm putting it online so i ain't got an excuse to forget i have it.

i read a friend's post some time ago,
and i've come to agree that when you stop writing, you stop thinking.

so here goes.

i've picked up writing again, both online and in my prayer journal. i stopped for quite some time, and i mean really stopped. a total absence of conversation between me and i. yeah i know how that sounds weird, but that's the way i get my head straightened out every now and then..

as you can tell, not having done so for a while actually did result in quite a huge mess. i've no drive, no priorities (in the words of a friend who happened to be in the right time at the right place) and also no urgency to do what i need to.
on the other hand, the lackadaisical attitude towards what i need to do, has allowed me to do some things on impulse, and for the record, some of these impulsive decisions have been good.

money seems to lose it's value every now and then. just after the lunar new year festivities, having had a top up in vitamin Ms, i half suspect that's the reason that allowed me to make certain choices when it came to money the past week. i'm thankful for the mercies and blessings. i truly am.

love ain't a feeling, it's the sum of the choices you make, the important ones, and the not so important ones too.
i chose to wait, because i know i loved my friend. and i'm pretty sure the love was felt, because God is good, thank You Lord =) *hugs*

to you all out there, the lack of comprehension is not going to justify my anger towards you, so i want to proclaim that i love you guys too, but i know the Lord loves you all much more then i do. =)

have a blessed weekend all!!

we choose the right thing to do, because it's liberation in itself that's only possible with our freedom; with our salvation we have knowledge of right and wrong, and therefore our response to life's situations ought to be the choices that fortify the fact that we're free to make the right choices in life to honour Him =)

to enter slumber with a heavy heart,
with the wish that it would lighten up when you awaken,
to find it weigh down as before,
then you realize you were lying to yourself.

quit hoping like this.
face the music.
love bravely.
and wake up.

God help me to remember that bargaining is a phenomenon that takes place between two who have their respective bargaining chips/power. help me remember that you're God, and that i'm man.

struggles that don't kill you make you stronger. i know that. i do know however firsthand that sometimes i rather be dead.

i'm lost.
i'm found.
i'm struggling.
i'm free.
i'm joyful.
i'm down.
i'm excited.
i'm dead bored.

i'm many things.
it wouldn't matter if i'm all these without you.
help me remember 'you' should be the reason, the end, the begining, and the means of all i am, do, and say.

C.O.N.T.A.G.I.O.U.S

my close friends would know i don't like being on a certain side of a camera lense.
go figure out which one, if you know me at all. haha..

anyway, the point of this entry's cause i'm thinking aloud.
i'm wondering why, how, and whether or not it makes sense, or whether it needs to make sense.
to myself, or to anyone for that matter.

it may be here to stay the way things are, or they may change.

what will be will be.. que sera sera...

even when it all comes crashing down..
i will still praise you as Lord God Almighty.

andrew's dad commented..
"wah.. like mafia like that.. "
hahaha..

it's the only thing that holds me back from turning away and never looking back..
it's unbearable, uncontrollable, and yet so liberating.

we love.. because He first loved us.
for those of you out that who flinch at what you so presume as a cliche,
my advice for you if you would accept it,
would be to do away with all of them,
but this one.

The precious blood of Jesus Christ redeems,
forgiven I’m alive,
restored set free.

Your majesty resides inside of me,
forever I believe.
forever I believe.

arrested by your truth and righteousness
your grace has overwhelmed my brokenness
convicted by your spirit,
led by your word

your love will never fail
your love will never fail

‘Cause I know you gave,
the world your only son for us to
know your name,
to live within the saviours love
and he took my place,
knowing he’d be crucified
and you loved.. you loved,
a people undeserving!

chronic's a pretty serious word.
being anti-social is not desireable.
i think i suffer from a chronic disability of socializing with people.
honest.

i've come to realise that patience; waiting upon the Lord whilst He takes His time to answer your questions gives rise to no doubt, no questioning, and best of all, an otherwise unimaginable amount of grace to accept.

thank you for conversation,
thank you for the time,
thank you for the friendship that was.

=)

handsome right? you decide which one... hahaha


this one's definitely cute.. =) hahaha.. adorable..


2 very close brothers of mine.. thank God for them..

when we reacquaint ourselves with old skills,
some call it knowledge-refreshment.
being honest about it,
let's come to terms that the only reason why 'refreshment' is required,
is cause we ain't masters of that skills yet,
and i don't think we'll ever be.
now i think i'm in the right frame of mind to tackle the question of why You're putting me through it all.

this repeated process was somewhat not received well,
but with the realization that it's necessary,
i think i wanna submit in obedience.
i do,
i honestly want to be able to say that nothing within my capacity can match up to the simplest of your plans,
help me do that please.
i'm messed up,
and i know you love messes like myself,
help me accept the fact that i can be loved,
and that you do love me.
i ain't mopping,
i ain't crying,
i'm rejoicing that You're God, my King, no one else... nothing compares.

you... could be my unintended...

that's a line from Muse - unintended.
sappy song, kinda moppy too. haha.
and i laughed when i heard it.
but that's cause i'm crying within.
no i'm not upset, i'm just being in touch with the many feelings i've been equipped with.

i think therefore i am.

no, i do not intend to come across as being philosophical today.
i just thought it was apt, but out of context.

silent bubbling excitement,
radical,
happiness,
joy,
acceptance,
sadness,
and embracing life.

some things once said,
maybe not agreed upon by great men,
are etched into history,
only a secret few would ever comprehend.

thanks for conversation.

i honestly think it's a nice cute bag.
it tickled me quite a bit, so yeah.

when we win, we praise God; when we lose, we praise God.

it's amazing how things fall into place,
when you decide to get right with the Lord.
and you thought you knew better huh..
tsk tsk.. once bitten twice shy obviously didn't apply here.
but so long we learn, that's what matters.