thanks to cassandra from MMC. got it from enlin though. hmm.. one performance i'll never forget.
immortalized in writing, fossilized in pictures.

bought a new pen, and have been writing in a diary. hope i continue to, even in the midst of my exams. well, nothing much to say for now, because i've written most of my thoughts for the day down in the my diary.
take care people and have fun.

*why should stress as a result of limited human understanding preceed faith hope and love?

so weird, all these feelings i have in me now.
it may have been the excessive amounts of caffeine, or maybe the people i spoke to through the night, or maybe cause i slept at 5am in the morning, or maybe cause of a show i re-watched.
in any case, i'm feeling melancholic.

i need my haircut, and i need to study.
will go for it later on, but i'm considering studying outside. i'm just wondering.. hmmm..

i've learnt so many new things in the last 3 days of my life, that i'm pretty much overwhelmed by my emotions. i ain't so sure it's time to be going through this.

Lord, i ask you be with me. my legs are feeling very jelly-like.

if there's one thing worse than not having friends, it would be that your friends ignore you.

had a good night's sleep, and had a good breakfast with my brother. got bad news though that my sister's apartment was broken into last night, but thankfully apart from a few missing things, all else is fine.
plan to do my QT before starting on a math paper today.

*i ask that this day be productive and that you help me appreciate the little things you've done in my life..

some say blogging helps, others gorge, yet others shop, but i think all don't work for me, and i personally op for sleep. at least i don't waste money or time doing something only to realise later that i regret it.
who can regret sleeping?

ah screw it.
yeah, screw it.
don't you get me? screw it!
ok, let me spell it out for you one last time.
S.C.R.E.W I.T!

i think i used like 50msgs in half an hour, so that time 3, i used 150msgs over dinner.
i don't really care about it anyway.
i need my shower, and my bed.

*a voice lingers in the head,
and for that moment,
language doesn't matter,
only the voice does.*

ever felt anything like that before?
well, don't answer, cause it wasn't meant to be answered.

ok, no, it's not some screw up on the database. yes it's been really quite some time now since i've stepped down, but just felt like posting the pictures only now. so yeah. i would be posting up the Love Meridian Day pics too.

nostalgia. our 1st pose together in school uniform, and the last together, in blazers.

right after the step down..

see the smiles?

Mr Tee's idea again.. =p

i wonder what the wall will be like by the time the next president steps down.

nostalgia, love, friendships, bonded, unity, happiness, laughter, smiles, and tears, are some of the words that have been flashing past my mind.

from all the posts that i read, from the pictures i see, from the memories i have, yes, i end up crying inside, but with both tears of joy and sorrow.
joy for the appreciation that we were once there,
sorrow for the knowledge that it must come to an end.

i think to say you people rock, i understate the true value of what you guys mean to me.
well, i'm not at a loss of words, because i know i want to tell you people i love you all.
yes s303, i do love you guys.
that my love sprung from my only hate, now i feel the stabs of bittersweet sorrow.

i have more to say, but i don't think it's the time to do so now. i don't want to write about these things when i'm so tired, when i fail to express what i truly feel, and i dim the hues of the colours that you people brought into my life. help me be fair to you people.
que sera sera.

we're going to STOMP!!!!!!

hahaha, hope we bring the house down, and do this last act together as a class! =)

i'm really looking forward to it, and thank you all for contributing in whatever ways you have, and yes you all do mean something to me. =)

i'm tired, and i'm feeling a mixture of lots of things. haha. night people.

hmmm.. alot has happened, yet nothing really worth the mentioning. at least to me lah. =p
(see the selfish side emerging?) - it's always about what i think is important, it's always about i, and seldom is 'me' out of the picture.

i choose to take a happy outlook at things. =)
if she's not feeling repulsive, then i'm happy for now. i hope this friendship grows.

i've been growing closer to my classmates, if you people haven't realised.
and i've been learning the limitations of the human soul.
my time is all i have, and when i grow closer to some people, inevitably i drift away from others.

i hope this changes for the better in view that it's my last week in school. ---> 3 weeks to prelims! hahahahaha

lunch was interesting, and dinner fulfilled it's purpose of filling my stomach.
i had a nap, of which i think was crap.

why do i get this feeling that you're bursting for me to say it so that you could just slap me so hard on the face and turn all this back into the times where i would distant myself from all of you again?
i'm not pondering, i'm troubled, and i don't think i'm thinking in the right frame of mind.

the circle of life is made up of dogs. along with the bitching, and snapping at each other's heels.

if we're acting like strangers, and you're not doing nuts about it, don't tell me we're like strangers cause i already know it.
give the situation a reason through your actions to be otherwise, or things would always remain the same. that's how it works. get it?

i'm quite fustrated, and i'm having a mild mood swing now.

flunked 2BL5 again. hahaha, but i'll keep trying. =)

pleasant phone call whilst walking home. maybe, just maybe we'll go at it again.

well, i have unsettled stuff.
godma just jio-ed me for mj tomorrow, the only problem's getting the tiles to her place, cause i'll be out the whole day, and it's grandpa's birthday dinner tomorrow, and i have a seminar on sat, and mom has to see Ms Tan on sat morning. see how the list goes on and on and on? hahaha, ok. i think i might switch the date mom sees Ms Tan again, but no choice. sigh, just hope she doesn't blabber too much.

night people, i'm dead beat, but at least i'm alive.

having to walk away knowing it would have been the best way out, was indeed a decision filled with defeat. but it was made, and that's that.

i question, and is it wrong to?
tell me if i am wrong to be doing so.
short term or long term? which are you?
and would that answer change with experience?

gosh, i never knew that my thoughts/depression encompassed all those things i spoke to with wj, hmmm.. maybe we all just need to talk things out, and then realise that we're all actually thinking individuals.

night people. enough has been said, not here, but not that i care.

from my youngest years,
till this moment here,
i've never seen,
such a lovely queen.

from the skies above,
to the deepest love,
i've never felt,
crazy like this before.

Chorus:
paint my love,
you should paint my love.
it's the picture of a thousand sunsets,
it's the freedom of a thousand doves,
baby you should paint my love.

been around the world,
then i met you girl,
it's like coming home,
to a place i've known.

Chorus

since you've came,
into my life,
the days before all faded black and white,
since you've came,
into my life,
everything has changed.

Chorus

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hmmm.. a white spot in the multitude of red, you inevitably stood out, and shone you did.
i'm ain't riding the waves of success with regard to handling this matter.
i'm torn between head knowledge, first hand experience, and pure stubborness, that's head on with hope, and what-ifs.
i'm coughing, my zits are breaking out, and i'm getting agitated at the mildest of things.

i need to cool down, literally and otherwise, that's why i'm drinking lots of water, and that stuff my mom cooked for me, and also resting.
but i need to continue working. i've started, but the pace is way too slow.

happy birthday to you Spore. i don't know you well enough to tell you i'm happy for you.

dinner..

the envious do not die once, but as oft as the envied win applause.

and although envy is a waste of time, i can't help but admit that i do envy some people at certain points in my life.

do you think life is ironic? when we are often filled with feelings tht are oxymorons.
hmmm.. spent my recess with Him, felt good. need to talk more, it's a relationship anyway. =p
can we go out on a date soon?

well, i ain't going to say it's all smooth sailing, and time is still edging towards the final day.
little by little, everyday...

won't you Lord, take a look at our hands?
everything we have, use it for your plan.
won't you Lord, take a look at our hearts?
mould me, refine me, as you set us apart?

we want to run to the altar, and touch the fire,
and stand in the gap between the living and the dead,
give us a heart of compassion,
for a world without vision,
we will make a difference bringing hope to this land.

you don't know me, so yeah, let's get to know each other better first yeah?
till then, yeap. nothing more needs to be said. one thing i'm thankful for though, that you're a child of God. let's hope it's the talk we walk, yeah, let us see how much it'll show in our walk as friends.

and as for mspiggy, i've been talking so much to you, that i was surprised by that question of yours. well, seriously, i didn't have an answer. it was more of a digression, to throw your attention off the question. yeah.
*the screen flickers and the speakers blip; the familiar tone of an incoming sms. yeah, it's from you.*

i'm walking away, from troubles in my life.... - Craig David

hmmm.. just finished up circuit revision today, going for 2BL5 next thurs, and the RTT on the 20th of august. hope i clear it all. back to normal life i guess.
the past two months have been kinda... no words to describe at the moment. don't think i want to get down to that anyway.